Same! My current partner doesn’t mind and I actually convinced a previous partner to adopt it so there are at least two ladies out there who are neutral-to-positive about it.

You are not the first person I’ve heard share that sentiment!

Sorry, couldn’t resist. You’re doing a LOT. I hope you can get some assistance on one or more fronts. And I hope you can give yourself some grace.

Something something security reasons maybe? 🤔

squeak squeak

Modern dating and the apps and stuff sucks for everybody (except maybe a few) in varying amounts for various intersecting reasons. The fact that our insecurities are priced into a company’s business plan is no fun. It’s just a truth that the default answer to the question, ‘is this a good match’ is ‘no’, and it’s probably healthy to limit the influence that has on your self image in whatever way seems sustainable while also being open to serendipity. It’s hard to feel good after being ghosted, but dang if it’s probably better than getting any closer to that kind of person.

I’m glad someone else got this vibe. Except I thought it felt like Ocean’s 11 but with the film making skill and sensibility of Power Rangers. I didn’t get past the scene where they get to their ship and introduce the crew. I had to turn it off. …And I loooooove love love star trek. Even the pretty bad stuff.

Oh wow. I’ve been needing to upgrade for a while and happened to be in a place where I was ready to make the purchase. The day the news about the most regressive tax scheme in history hit I went through the whole normal process of selecting all the completely insanely priced upgrade options I needed and placed the order. It’s due next week - I must have been one of the last ones.

I used a local model based llm thing to separate a drum part out of a song that I was working on learning with some friends. That was a lot of fun, and didn’t feel like I was ripping creators off.

I also recently tried out gemini’s research mode thing to research a subject I already knew a good bit about as a test. It got some decent answers and showed its sources, which was great for double checking its work, but it still had that oddly verbose and repetitive quality to it. I asked for an audio summary and it spat out an absolutely horrifying uncanny valley fake podcast on the topic. I still kinda shudder when I think about it.

Haaaahaha classic. Awful, but classic.

The N thing gets me too - it seems to be within the last couple years that it’s been an issue for me. I just chalked it up to the ergonomics of big phones, but now I’m wondering if there might be a software component. Like I don’t remember it being a problem at all in the past, but now I gotta be super careful with my typing to notndonthisnallnthentime

If they could just stop autocorrecting correctly spelled words to other words I did not intend, that would be great. Had to turn off the whole dang feature because it behaves so poorly.

Nice win :)

Back in college this kinda thing would happen to me a bunch. The fear of forgetting would stress me out so much I’d lose sleep and compound the whole mess of problems. Ended up keeping a notepad by my bed to scribble my thoughts onto so I could give my poor brain a break for sleep.

I loved Piranesi by Susanna Clarke! Also if you want to stretch your genre comfort, Kim Stanley Robinson’s Mars trilogy is just wonderful. I return to it every few years.

Thanks for popping in the link! Wow, what a read. I hope it leads to better treatment.

Whatever happens, I hope you two can get back to hiking without the madness. There are tons of ways to address it tactically that others have gone into, so I won’t make any additional suggestions but I can say that as a diagnosed adhd-haver I can super duper relate. I hope you get the diagnosis outcome and support from your partner that you need.

Agreed and welcome! Be prepared to engage in or create a new space for the communities you care about. Things feel like they’re just getting started here, but that’s ok. Good luck and have fun!

Dang - please report back if you figure it out! I was thinking of doing a complete system reset but hadn’t gotten to it yet.

When medicated I feel like it’s easier to stick to a task, but it doesn’t help me with picking the right task so I think I understand some of what you feel. The Time Timer has helped me sometimes when I just need the extra bit of external help. The act of picking it up and deciding to use it helps reaffirm my intention of working on a thing, and then the visual indicator of time passing helps my really really bad time sense to be moored to reality a bit better. The mental UHG of beginning the work task seems to melt away pretty quick after that initial step. Then the medication helps to let me proceed without my mind wandering. Other stuff is a necessity like physical activity and enough sleep. Getting out of a misdirected focus is tough, so I feel for ya.