So, I have given it some thought. I talked to my partner about it and, honestly, I don’t see the point in trying to build or be a part of online communities anymore. I don’t like or trust people now. I don’t have the patience or goodwill I used to. I’m tired of the same conversations playing out over and over again. Nothing changes. No one values the things I value as much as I do, so everyone always disappoints me in the end.

It just results in me bringing negativity back into my personal life, and seldom brings me any joy now. I can’t expect other people to change things to accommodate my needs, so the only answer I can find is to remove myself from situations that harm me.

So I’m going to try to stop being active online. Bye, best of luck and well wishes. I think this may be one of the best platforms I’ve been on in terms of quality of conversation and moderation- great job, but I’m obviously too damaged to function in situations like this.

Peace ✌️

I appreciate the thought, but I didn’t find that useful for my situation. I already think about this all the time, and I am not in a position to responsibly channel any energy away from keeping my loved ones alive and healthy.

I am trying to focus on it, it’s just I can lose an hour+ whenever I come across a headline that’s purpose built to piss people off- because I have to fight myself not to make an entire small essay about why it’s irresponsibility presented and generally ineffective.

Yeah, I kind of expected as much. I will just continue to block things until I can look at local communities without being triggered by the doom.

Maybe I’ll try to get that to work later. Thanks.

Article about how school lunches require system change in Humanity and Culture

Five out the the eight last AskBeahaw posts. Six if you include the one that got deleted between me making this post and replying here.

Your Favorite Celebrity Would Have Supported Hitler in Chat.

The Psychological Toll of the US Election in Science.

I’m not sure about LGBTQ+ anymore, since I blocked it a while ago because of the drip of news about how it’s getting incrementally closer to being legal for me to be hunted for sport.

Yeah, the constant news coverage is why I have blocked every news community on here, and still the villain pursues me.

Philosophically, I think the pursuit of truth and the exercise of compassion are worthwhile endeavors.

But when that’s too abstract, I remind myself that I have people who rely on me and benefit from my presence in their life. I work to make the world around me better than it was before, so that others can immediately, and in the future, can have better lives.

I’m using Obsidian. The minimal size makes syncing faster, and I enjoy the mobile interface.

I am sufficiently weird that delve isn’t an especially obscure word for me to drop in a random conversation. My partner and I are likely to just use stuff like “Pontificate” at random, so, I feel weird about this.

People, as a group, never understand what they want in media. That’s why writing and art are skills you have to practice.

Also, if people guess what’s going to happen in a story then, congrats, you passed basic foreshadowing. It’s not clever to swerve like that, it just shows a lack of intentionality and vision.

I’m also using Syncthing to sync up my notes between my laptop and phone. It’s been great! Less Google doc use.

Since I’m a little embarrassed by the mistake, what do you look for in an incremental game? I can look through the ones I’ve played for Android and see if any could work?

Oh, right, so I was so excited to mention it I forgot it’s not a mobile game >.<

It’s on steam, but yeah, my bad.

Thanks for posting this. I really enjoyed getting to play Magic again thanks to Forge, and Anuto is a really solid tower defense.

Hey, it’s a paid game (non-freemium) but you could try Orb of Creation. I think there’s a free demo on itch. One of the most fascinating incremental games I’ve played. I actually played all the way up to the current content’s end.

Eagerly awaiting updates.

I’m starting to set up the groundwork to do freelance work. Not sure how well I’ll do, but it’s a strong step towards a happier me.

I really enjoy Diablo Swing’s music. They have such a unique vibe that I really like. My partner and I met partially because of the Balrog Boogie!

I’m glad someone is fighting the good fight. It’s becoming more and more obvious that the prevalence of these tool in academic circles may cause more harm than good.

It’s a great dream, leaving. I’m not rich enough to make that happen, though. Maybe once things get worse, I can become a refugee- but, it’s more likely that I’ll cling to life here until it’s impossible to continue.